8 Months Old

Today our sweet Drew is 8 months old. We thought for sure we'd have him home by now. Guess that wasn't in God's plan. We're praying and praying that we have him home very soon.

Trying To Remain Positive

It's not working. I'm trying hard to see the positive side in all of these delays. It's not happening. I can't understand why it's taking so long. I know that it's in God's perfect timing....I KNOW THAT. But....that's not helping this mommy's heart that's breaking right now and it's not helping a sad, sad daddy.

Yesterday we received word that our I-600 paperwork had indeed been returned to our agency staff in Vietnam. Today....we heard that our 60 days for approval will start when the paperwork is resubmitted. What? It's already been there since October 29th...now it has to start all over again? Unreal. So.....instead of what we thought would be a March...maybe April travel date is looking more and more like May or June. I can't believe this and I can't get my heart around it. We got Drew's referral when he was a little over 2 months old. We had so hoped we'd have him home by the time he was 6 or 7 months old. But now...geeesh...I'm just praying that we have him home for his first birthday.

I'm incredibly disappointed, sad, mad, irritated and just totally beat. We just want our baby!!!!

What A Day

It's Monday...a cold rainy Monday. That's enough...but no...it got worse. This whole I-600 nightmare is still not resolved. There's much confusion at the Embassy in Vietnam, which in turn causes lots of confusion for the waiting families. BUT....I think everything is going to be fine. We're not at a point, where we're actually missing document yet...since we're not on Step 8 yet. Once that step is completed, any missing document can be forwarded to the Embassy. I know it doesn't make a lot of sense, but it's just part of the process. It's just been one of those days when it seemed like the sky was truly falling.

We did get our travel packet today. Not that it means anything really positive at this moment...but it's giving me something to focus on.

I'm praying that God will guide the folks at the Embassy and help them get organized. I also pray that Jynger (who is in Vietnam right now) can get some clear answers.

How do you miss a baby you've never met? It's funny to think about it that way...but I miss my baby boy. This mommy needs her baby boy.

Finally...Some News

We received an update this evening. We are finally on Step 7 of the infamous 12 step process. They are very hopeful that we'll get word in a week or two that we're further along in the process. So, keep praying my friends. We're happy to finally have word that the mound of paperwork is moving along. Now...let's just pick up the pace a little.

Drew...hoping and praying we'll be on our way to get you soon.

No News Until Next Week

I emailed Jynger yesterday...I couldn't wait any longer. She said that we should have an update by the middle of next week. Oh well...I guess that's something, right? Hopefully the update will bring us good news.

There are so many Ninh Thuan families waiting right now for news. Plus, there are lots of others that are waiting for referrals still. My prayer is that soon we will all be celebrating.

For now, I'm going to work. This weekend I'm going to work on the boys room and plan Ian's birthday party. That should keep me busy.

Breathe In...Breathe Out

That's what I'm trying to do. Nice calm thoughts.....breathe....breathe.....

IT'S NOT WORKING!!! I'm breathing but I'm not calm. Trying desperately to have a new outlook. Trying to stop whining an just go with the flow....but IT'S NOT WORKING. I really want to stomp my foot and pout.....wait, that's what I'm doing.

I have to put my big girl panties on and get a grip. We will be with Drew soon. I felt so bad tonight. At the dinner table Charlie said..."I'm ready to travel." What did I say..."Now Charlie, don't start...I can't handle it". Wow...give me the wife of the year award. My dear husband is stuggling and I make it about me. Bad girl. It threw me because he's always so strong and rational. He had a moment like this during Ian's adoption too.

So...keep the prayers coming...that's the only thing that going to get us through.

Please Let This Be The Week

Please God, let this be the week we hear some good news. The holiday is over, so please pray that we hear something good this week. I don't think I can handle any bad news or no news at all. I'm almost to my breaking point. Actually...I think I'm past it.

The wait is so much harder this time around. I know I've said that before. I did do a little shopping this weekend. We don't need much...if anything...but it was good for me. My Mei Tai baby carrier came in on Thursday. I love it already. Can't wait until I have a baby to put in it.

We also celebrated Ian's Gotcha Day today. Hopefully we'll be doing some celebrating of a different kind very soon.

Please, please pray!

Losing My Mind

OK...it's official...I'm losing my mind. I didn't expect to hear an update this week, so I'm not so sure why I'm so bummed. But, I am. I am just so ready to get Drew.

I'm worried that something is wrong. I know that's probably not the case, but without an update in nearly 120 days...I'm a little worried. We're told to expect to travel 3-6 months after our log in date. 6 months would be April...so I guess I need to start preparing myself for that. But...right now...I just can't even think about it. It just makes me so sad.

Sunday will be our 2nd Gotcha Day with Ian. We left for India on Valentine's Day 2006. Ian will always be my special valentine. Of course, thinking about how wonderful it was to get Ian 2 years ago, is making me want Drew even more. It's been a very teary and emotional day.

Please pray that we get some sort of update next week.

7 Months Old

Today our little man is 7 months old. We first saw his face almost 4 months ago. As each day passes, I long to hold him. We did receive a height and weight update on Friday. In January he was up to almost 16 pounds and 26 inches tall. He's growing and we're so thankful for that. We continue to pray that he'll be in our arms very, very soon.

Happy TET

Happy TET everyone. Next year we'll be celebrating TET as a family with our little guy Drew at home.

This year....let's get this holiday over with so our paperwork can move and we can pick up our son.